I see." His hand held onto one of Bokuto's very thin arms, and his thumb would occasionally rub up and down to comfort him. Bokuto swallowed thickly and toyed with the Pocky in his hand. i think this is probably one of the saddest . With this, he raised a quivering hand and his index finger. Bokuto's head lolled to the side, directing his attention back to the movie. Sho | Ghibli Wiki | Fandom He would have to close Bokuto's blinds and take his mind off of it somehow. Bokuto leaned in and touched his forehead to Akaashi's. "Bokuto," he whispered. It's a little too late for that, Bokuto." more depressing than the outsiders. Akaashi sat in bed and wrapped a sheet around himself. He had to force himself to say the mere four words. I'm taking you back." He expected to hear a whine of resistance from him, but instead received nothing. Sitting back, he reached a hand out and paused the movie that'd been on screen. He wanted the thought to leave his mind. Akaashi's tone was monotonous, but Kuroo didn't fail to detect the venom that lined each word prior to his last sentence. He left the room quickly, leaving Bokuto by his lonesome. Kuroo froze. Bokuto smiled wide to those words. He was ecstatic. Swiftly, Akaashi closed the window, having gathered just enough snow off the edge for him to show to Bokuto. "Stop trying to act like this isn't such a big deal You may not think it is, but I" He paused and reached his arms out to get in another shove. Two weeks had passed since Akaashi's last visit, and to his dismay, he found himself on the same aimless path back to the same dreaded hospital. Slowly but gradually, Akaashi's heart rate picked up. I didn't cry either I just assumed it was a dreamwhich i really hope it wasotherwise id be so sad, oop i thought it was like, he died and that was the vision he had before dying/was their afterlife. Akaashi groaned softly and covered his face. With his hand clinging to his neck, he slowly looked up to find that Akaashi was staring back at him with vacant eyes, void of all known emotion. Apathy-kun. It was his attempt at brightening the mood, or "being funny," as some called it, but alas, his words had fallen flat on the ground as he received another silent reply from Bokuto. He spoke to Akaashi as if he hadn't had a friend to text in years. He couldn't stand his parents' persistent natures, but he was somewhat relieved to be out of the house, to say the least. He didn't know how to deal with him now, so he remained silent. Bokuto knew this, and now Akaashi did, too. His breathing was heavy, his heart rate quicker than usual; Akaashi could feel his heart pounding in his throat, making it difficult to swallow. Bokuto followed briskly. In minutes, the information desk was in his sights, and for the first time in forever, he'd actually gone to it. Sometimes I think I'm funny. He smelled sort of like a hospital. Not only was Bokuto the kind of guy to sneak out when no one was watching, but his condition had quickly begun to worsen without warning. I most definitely did not sob reading this. The sound of rain pelting hard against the window snapped Akaashi back into reality. "It's just how I am. "I spiked it perfectly just now! For what felt like an eternity, Bokuto typed the words on Akaashi's phone. Those honey-hued eyes took in all that they could of Akaashi's laughing face. You always do.". Akaashi swiped and unlocked his phone with trembling hands. He used to be bigger than Kuroo, but now he's the one who's smaller. Bokuto's voice was filled to the brim with excitement. His arms and legs were stiff, as were his eyes. Not in the state that he was in. But people never laugh at my jokes. He urged him to keep the blanket around him, but Bokuto insisted that he leave it behind. My face was the only thing sticking out." He couldn't look at his face. ", Akaashi was straightforward, but he wasn't heartless. "That weather will only hurt you. Akaashi entered the building and greeted the woman at the front desk, as always. ", "I get panic attacks when you're not around," Bokuto answered simple-mindedly. Inhaling deeply, Akaashi lingered in place, then sat down in the empty seat next to Kuroo. His ability to speak left him soon after. ", "He's genuine, kind, and at times, infantile, but that's what makes him so Likeable, I suppose. Bokuto covered his mouth and coughed suddenly. Akaashi placed the box back onto the counter and huffed softly. Now if only the sickly one would hit it. "You tremble when it's seventy degrees in the room. "Anything but," Bokuto retorted, sitting upright in bed. He walked ahead quickly, straight into the room. With much effort, he sat up to look at Bokuto. That night was no different as Akaashi repeated this action for the twentieth time that day, his thumb scrolling up and down for minutes on end until he finally came to a stop. Akaashi moved his head to the side and touched his forehead to Bokuto's neck. Very much." Lying next to Akaashi, a ghostly pale Bokuto smiled. "You're too loud, be quiet." "Get over here." "I'm Holding it now.". "I know you're fond of that movie." "Shut up." ", Bokuto pulled away to face his smirking friend. It wasn't like Bokuto to question what he said in such a straightforward fashion. He pressed pause on his PSP and tapped one end of it against his open palm. Akaashi's arm cautiously wrapped itself around Bokuto's broad shoulders. Akaashi cast a weary look in Bokuto's direction, gave a nod, and continued on his way until he was out of the building. The air was bitter and cold, and it hit Bokuto like a slap to the face as another gust of wind forced its way into the hospital room. Akaashi tapped his fingers quietly against his pants. Imagine their faces when they notice I'm not even in my room." As Akaashi lay there, quiet, listening to Bokuto's strained breathing, he opened his mouth to speak. My last memory of Koutaro is already with me, and it will die along with me.". He watched as Bokuto gathered it up in his arms and threw it around himself. No words were exchanged for what seemed like forever before Akaashi spoke up. Even if it's just a little bit." Akaashi paused for a long moment and said nothing for a while. He was extremely pale, and somehow thinner than before, but he kept that same smile on his face. "I don't want you to grow any m-more attached to me th-than y-you already are. I'm trying to detach myself. It was cold and shook in short bursts. He felt the need to keep most of his questions at bay. Akaashi remained in his faux sleeping position, feeling that it would take much more of an effort for him to open his eyes and check around than to stay dormant. My home is not a place for you to be right now. He whispered the words. What sat upon the screen was not what he thought it would be, but rather A simple compliment. It took time for Akaashi's words to reach him, but when they finally did, his face lit up as he broke out in laughter. Bokuto stood at the side of Akaashi's bed. "Of this hospital. "What would you have chosen to say?". "I haven't set foot outside in weeks." Bokuto plopped onto the mattress right after those words, bumping his head against Akaashi's shoulder. He then stared at Akaashi, waiting for his response. Thank you for stopping by, your interest means everything to me. At one point, he reached a hand up to grab the beanie off of his head, and he aimlessly chucked it to the ground with force. Bokuto grumbled to himself. In its latest offering, 'Another Life', it has 'Battlestar Galactica' star, Katee Sackhoff, play the role of a woman who leads a team of astronauts into deep space to discover the . "Sh-shut up, Akaashi" He breathed in deeply, frustrated with himself and the gradual growth of his speech impediment, but continued on. "I hope you don't mind me sleeping." "You will get through this. "Well, you're laughing now" He tried to hide his smile. "What's the big deal? His eyes were glued to Akaashi's, and Akaashi found that he was unable to look away. He reached a hand out and touched Bokuto's forehead. After a moment, he finally spoke. The both of them didn't exchange any words after that, ending the conversation just as suddenly as it had started. ], [I don't know any other way to put it. They remained speechless in each other's company for several minutes before Bokuto actually spoke up, his voice sounding like nothing more than a mere whisper. "I'm taking it well, or at least I think I am. "You do? His green eyes then fell to study his paling skin; his veins were easily noticeable now, and they bulged from beneath his flesh whenever he moved. On that one hand, three fingers stuck out. I never meant to drag you into my life". Mental Illnesses of Haikyuu | Anime Amino He'd only spoken to Kuroo once before, and they barely exchanged any words. He glowered at nothing in particular. He then reached out and took hold of Bokuto's arm to help him back to the bed. Bokuto's voice was soft, measly, and carried no force to it. Akaashi knew that running probably wasn't the best thing that he should have been doing, but he said nothing about it. He turned his head to get a clear look at Bokuto's face, but instantly wished he hadn't. But as he thought of it, as he narrowed down the true meanings of both phrases, he ultimately could not decide which of the two were more horrifying. So he stayed in place, holding onto Bokuto, taking in his company for one last time before he'd never see him again. This was so so sad, I cried at the end. This was their unspoken communication. "I wonder if Bokuto knows about all of this." He kept his eyes on the screen. Why is that? as well as Because of that fact that this is set in a world where Bokuto and Akaashi haven't met, you get to read their realationship develop, and honsesty it only makes it that much more painful to read. Why?" Akaashi was dumbfounded. Though the question was asked clearly, Bokuto didn't make a sound, nor did he move. Akaashi closed his eyes and sighed, swaying absentmindedly in his step, opening his eyes just in time to swiftly avoid colliding with someone. their spirits found each other again as they moved on to "another life". Has he ever done anything bad? He was staring outside at the white clouds that shrouded the skies, mesmerized by just how colorless it made everything seem. He tried desperately to hold it in. Akaashi almost smiled. And to have gotten to know you". A gust of icy wind charged its way into the room in an instant, draining the warmth from everything it touched. At other times, he would just tell him things that were on his mind. Is he here?". "No. "Why not? ", "Because it's three in the morning and I want to fit some sleep into my schedule. Why did he lack the understanding of just how serious his condition was? "How insensitive of me" He furrowed his brow, mentally scolding himself. ", "Comforting?" He didn't get a response, nor did he see any signs of responding. "I could ask you the same thing" Akaashi's lips screwed to the side. Akaashi woke up to the feeling of sunlight against his face. Once it did, Akaashi was greeted with a, "Hello?". "I'm not leaving, Koutarou." He held an air around him as if he were having a normal conversation about the weather. He ascended those familiar steps, said hello to the familiar faces, and rounded that familiar corner that he knew would lead him to Bokuto's room. The pain seared itself into his soul, hindering him, rendering him speechless to a point where he no longer knew what words were. He quickly got up from the bed and walked off. ", Bokuto couldn't help but guffaw, his head tilting back. which ABSOFUCKINGLUTELY BROKE ME TO PIECES. He has a solid and muscular build. He wanted to know if it was real or not. Though Bokuto's speaking skills weren't as good as they used to be, he was still the more talkative one out of the two. "I don't want to." Tokyo needs a little more snow now and then. He stood there, hesitant, uninterested, indifferent. "" Bokuto looked up to stare out the window again. He felt as if all the air had been squeezed out of his body by the words that Bokuto had spoken. Bokuto was afraid to wake Akaashi. His quiet chuckle was louder than Bokuto's wholehearted laugh. He stretched and stifled a yawn, pushed a hand through the mess that was his hair, and relaxed his head against Akaashi's shoulder. Bokuto would lay still for quite a while, his head tilted to the side with one hand on his stomach, and the other at his side. "Were you ever friends with Bokuto?" Not great, but alright. All he had to do was talk to someone, and in an instant, they would be involved in Bokuto's lively shenanigans once again. He understood how that would be alarming to some people. He needed something anything to say to Bokuto, just so that he could liberate himself of the horrid feeling that threatened to overtake him. He leaned into his touch, and his vision began to fade, his eyes welling with tears. littleluxray's writing style is absolutely amazing and i can see why several people love this. Kuroo started down the hall, Bokuto trailing after him. Akaashi made sure to take a mental picture of this before he looked down and closed his eyes. The question came out of the blue. But he couldn't keep it up forever. "Ha! "How did he look?" He thought back to the bags around Bokuto's eyes. He pulled and tugged at them restlessly. "I can barely keep my eyes open by day, and can barely keep them closed by night." It's very good. Press J to jump to the feed. "So I guess I am pretty good at being funny. He said lightheartedly, his fingers trembling around his phone. But three hours can also feel like seven minutes. I don't want to know them. Akaashi leaned over in his seat to move himself closer to Bokuto. "Akaashi?" His eyes lighting up, Bokuto straightened his back and fished his hand into his pocket. "The three hours!" He swore without a filter. "You can sit anywhere." He was slow to speak up again, but did either way. I'll have to watch it again.". "I guess I could find some time to talk every so often."